i really want to laugh. but somehow i know that if i do, it'll come out in a croak. yes! i have lost my voice completely. i feel like crap.

have to get better by latest monday cos i've got another OP rehearsal to prep for. not to mention Mamma Mia! on sunday. what a laugh. i am sensing a pattern here. everytime i have something good to look forward to, like a concert, i get sick and am unable to go. remember YY's NJ CO concert?

everyone's acting like a prat nowadays. and they look at me as if i'm not entitled to doing the same thing as they are. perhaps they don't realise that they themselves are acting like that. please la, just get a life.

i really hate people telling me i'm dumb. i don't need you to tell me i'm super freaking brillant but it hurts to hear you say that i'm dumb. and don't try giving excuses later that you were just using me as an example to explamify the wonders of hard work. yes, i know i work hard because i'm not as smart as my sis, but don't go overboard by comstantly repeating the fact that i'm dumb. i'm not. i'm just not as naturally smart as others. i can't go through life coasting on my brain because i know that i'm not those that are naturally smart.

i want to say so much more but i can't. because i know it's wrong to hate so deeply. whatever. i'm not sure we'll get over it but we'll see.

(just family stuff)